It was great seeing you after 2 years! Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me.
It was nice seeing your cousin (for the first time) and your bestfriend Wam.
I finally see your smiling face for so long.
Everything was still vivid when I woke up from a bad dream.
You were eating in the dining room with everyone except me. I was watching outside from a television and I only saw you across the windows.
I was eating chips while talking with my brother when your cousin Aska suddenly showed up from nowhere. I tried to look and walk away, trying to avoid her, but she insisted to talk. I greeted her and offered some chips (???).
She asked me if I already talked you. I said no because you were eating inside.
And then I left.
I felt bad to myself when I woke up from my dream.
I wish I could change what happened.
I really felt it was the real thing.
It was couple of days ago when I decided to cook some pasta. I made it extra special just for you.
It was the day I wanted to surprise you but you already told me that you’ll arrive in Taft late. I still decided to bring some food to your house and brought the overdue gift.
It was a busy and hot Friday afternoon. I chose to walk instead of taking a cab because of the traffic jam. My heart was raising fast while walking towards your house because I didn’t know what your mom will react after seeing me again for a long time. I had in my mind that she might not recognize me.
And boy I was right.
I saw her just outside near your blue gate, doing some laundry. I tried calling her the first time but I wasn’t sure she heard me. So I shouted again.
Here’s the conversation we had (non-verbatim):
Me: Tao po. Tao po.
Her: Sino sila?
Me: Good afternoon po. Ako po yung schoolmate ni Eriza.
Her: Wala sya rito. Mamaya pa ang uwi. Balik ka na lang mamaya.
Me: Ay opo. Ako po pala si Abram.
Me: Ako po yung ano… Yung teacher dati ni Eriza.
Her: Ahhh. HIndi kita namukhaan. Kanina ka pa ba?
Me: Ahh hindi naman po. May dala po pala akong pasta para po sa inyo.
Me: Sige po. Una na ko. Sabihin ko na lang po pumunta ako.
And I left. I can still remember how terrified I am when I speak to her. Nevertheless, it was a fun experience for me because I had to chance to see your mom again (I really wished I stayed the whole afternoon so I can finally see you).
Later that evening, my heart was happy when I saw this:
It was a success.
Hope you enjoyed my pasta.
Looking forward to surprise you again.
(Belated) Happy Valentines Day, Eriza!
I was supposed to surprise you last Tuesday but can’t find the right moment.
It’s been a year.
Still hoping to see you (and be with you).
I was browsing my old photos when I saw this old video of yours:
I wish I can teach you how to play the violin. So I can see that smile again.